Recap Days 6-13 Weight Watchers
Posted by January Harshe on March 5, 2008
Man, having 3 kids is a hoot! Finding time is like trying to escape mosquitoes in the humid heat of Dallas, Texas. Ugh!
Days 6 and 7
I had frustrated feelings come up these days. I had thoughts along the lines of, "Why am I even in this situation?" "I shouldn’t have weight issues." "I’ve already gone thru losing weight before, why again?" "Ok, I know I had a baby, but still, this sucks."
It was no fun, but it was emotions coming up that I had to face. I know that the person I am on the inside can show on the outside. It is no fun not feeling comfortable in your own skin. Literally, I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin. It just does not feel right.
Weigh In For Week 1
Now, I followed points for 7 days, with the exception of one meal at the Olive Garden. I went to weigh in with my mother in law who just joined. I get on the scale and as I look down at what the nice old lady is writing down, I am in disbelief. I want to crawl into a (big) hole. Gained 1.2 pounds?! What the freakin’ heck? Are you serious? I was so ticked off. Really, I was not OK with that. I write down everything I eat, am counting calories (points) and I GAIN weight? I sent a text to my friend Staci, "Gained 1.2, this sucks."
My Reaction
Days 8, 9 and 10 I kind of go off of counting points. Typical, right? I’m totally irritated and start having the feelings of, "If I’m gonna gain, then why am I doing this? I may as well eat whatever the hell I want." It doesn’t make it any better that my skinny, health conscious husband wants to have a "cheat" day. After Chic-fil-a and Peter Piper Pizza, I’m beginning to wonder what I am doing. I mean, I want to be skinny and healthy. This isn’t about "The Fat on January", right? Or is it?
Anyways, I am remembering that a calorie isn’t just a calorie. If you eat 2000 calories of good fats, grass fed, natural meats, fruits, veggies and raw milk and cheese, well, that is different than 2000 calories of a value meal at a fast food joint. Obviously, the nutrients taken in with the healthier foods is more beneficial, but even pound for pound you’ll be eating more food the healthier way. You will be more satisfied, have less cravings and lose more weight. Yeah, OK, it may not be as fun at first, but after a while, your taste buds don’t change, they become alive again! I know in my example I start to crave the healthier foods.
Inspiration
On Sunday I saw a woman at church that I had not seen in about 3 years. I did not recognize her and had to ask someone who she was. When they told me it was Sister Donner, my draw dropped to the floor. As I picked it up I managed to ask where half of her went. I waved her down and after telling her how amazing she looked, I asked here how she lost half of herself. She said it was Weight Watchers. No way! "How much have you lost?" I asked. She said, "Eighty seven pounds. I can’t believe I had that much to lose on me!" She has been counting points and changing eating habits for a year now. She faithfully attends meetings and says, "It’s the only ‘diet’ that truly works". Now that is inspiration (and maybe a sign) at its best.
Days 11 and 12
I got my big booty back on track. After getting thru all of my emotional ups and downs, I decided to stick this out. I am not where I was when I lost the weight by myself in Texas (literally and mentally). I need the support and accountability. I figure if I go to weigh in every week (instead of ignoring what I’m eating) and have a gain, then eventually I might do something about it. I also decided to cut my nursing points from 10 to 5. Now, my allowed points will be 37, not 42. I’m going to see how this effects my milk, if at all, and my weight loss.
Exercise
Brandon asked me 2 nights ago if I wanted to go on a walk in our neighborhood after the kids were in bed. I was surprised that some lame excuse, such as I need to clip my toe nails, didn’t come out of my mouth. Instead a simple "yes" slipped out. So, I charged up my ipod and walked for 35 minutes listening to the Step Up soundtrack. Fun times. I stretched afterwards and felt great. The best part about exercising again after being sedentary for so long, was the mental changes. I started to feel, well, HOPE again. I thought about all I wanted to do, accomplish, be and remembered how great it feels to exercise. It was great. I love walking. Also, there were no kids hanging on me. That in itself was totally worth it. Oh, it was worth 3 points, which I did not use.
Yesterday, I took the kiddos to the zoo. We were there for 5 hours!!! It was all outside walking and I am feeling it today. I am so sore. I calculated that I did 2 hours of low intensity walking and that was worth 7 points. I did end up using those though. I ate more yesterday because I really was hungrier. It was great to be more active and to be able to listen to my body’s true hunger signals.
Day 13
So, I am here at day 13, still counting points and plan on walking again tonight. I have weigh in tomorrow night. I’m not sure if there will be a loss, b/c of my straying, but I am looking forward to the week after that and the many weeks to come. I love making small changes and becoming healthier. This is a journey and I am enjoying the process!
