Well, it was not necessarily the middle of the week. Let me explain. Today was that day. Whenever I make a positive change, there comes a day (usually around day 4 or 5) that it is just hard. It is that day when my mind starts playing tricks and my body follows suit. I was hungry today! Really hungry! I wanted to eat and eat. It was interesting though. Instead of panicking and having an overload of negative self talk, I just allowed it be what it was. In the past I would have over binged on food, then said, "Well that’s that! I might as well eat whatever I want. I’ll worry about eating healthy later."
I have learned by now through past experiences to not give up. This is not all or nothing! I will eat better tomorrow. This is life. If I see this as just a diet, that is temporary. I don’t want to see me getting healthier again and losing weight as temporary. This is a permanent change I am making here. I may change my approach or strategy, but I am no giving up. No towel to be thrown in here!
What I Ate
I have to admit I am embarrassed to share this, but I know if I were reading it, I would want to know. I seriously decided earlier this evening that I wasn’t going to write out what I ate. As I write this post though, I know I should. I’m just going to list today’s food. It won’t necessarily be in order.
My regular oatmeal breakfast 3 oranges A small handful of pecans 1/2 avocado Chic-fil-a chicken sandwich Side salad w/low fat honey mustard Popcorn with olive oil and sea salt Chocolate chips Raw cheese 1 cup brown rice cooked in chicken broth and water, sea salt and pepper. Served with a little butter Organic cookies and vanilla soy milk 2 McDonald’s ice cream cones ("shame, shame" I say as I shake my head!)
Total Points: 52 Ouch!!! Used 10 Flex Points Total Flex Points used for the week: 21/35
What Tomorrow Will Bring
I am looking forward to tomorrow. I know that I will feel great that I did not give up. I will focus on the changes I have made and look forward to finishing up the week on the Flex Plan. I also look forward to the Core Plan. I weighted in last Wednesday night. I started the Flex Plan on Thursday morning. I will weigh in this Thursday night for week one. I am switching meetings. My mother in law is joining me, so I’ll be attending with her.
Breakfast: 2 cups oatmeal with 2 tbsp. raw agave and 1/2 cup organic, wild blueberries.
Mid-morning Snack: an orange and raw cheese
Lunch: garden veggie soup, and about 2/3 avocado,
Afternoon Snack: an omelet with 3 eggs made in coconut oil, mushrooms and spinach, salsa
Dinner (I snacked) :popcorn with butter, chocolate chips, an orange, 2 servings organic cookies dipped in vanilla soymilk
Total Points: 42 (exact amount allowed)
Thoughts
Today was good. I was actually happy it was Sunday because we don’t go out on Sundays and that meant no ice cream cone. I wanted a reason to stay home and not have that treat. I ate pretty healthy and snacked when I felt I needed to. I’m starting to get a feel for how much food is allowed with my alloted points. I’m curious to see how much I lose in a week eating this many points.
Plan
I plan to switch to the Core Plan next week (week 2) to compare the two plans Weight Watcher’s offers. I am excited to do this. The Flex (points) Plan is great because it’s so flexible, which I needed right now. The Core Plan is just simply healthier I think. Week 3, I am going to switch back to the Flex Plan and add in exercise. I will also see after this first week if I need to adjust my points. Then week 4 I will go back on the Core Plan with exercise. I can not wait to see the results.
So, today was interesting. I went over my points, but I was able to recognize why. For one, I didn’t have the soup today. That was such a great help. I became really hungry before lunch and ended up making home made cheese quesadillas. While they were darn tasty, the were not filling. After that I went on a serious carb craving binge. It could have been worse, but I noticed I just was not satisfied.
What I Ate
Breakfast: 2 cups oatmeal with 1 tbsp raw agave and 1/2 cup organic wild blueberries Morning Snack: banana, orange and 1/2 avocado Lunch: 2 tortillas with raw cheese and salsa Snack: hot chocolate with whipped cream, 1 roll (Grandma Ellen made rolls and brought them over…dangerous!), Air popped popcorn w/2 tbsp organic butter Dinner: 1/2 serving of Chic-fil-a chicken*, small fries, few sips lemonade, my McDonald’s ice cream cone Snack: an orange
Total points today was actually 52! I went 10 over. I have spent 10/35 of my extra free points for the week.
*This is the first time I have eaten chicken in months. I go through spurts of no chicken, because I read about how nasty it is processed, then I’ll give in and eat it for a while. When I am eating meat I really try to eat it from local farms where I know they are raised, what they are fed and how they are killed. I guess it makes me feel better.
What’s Up For Tomorrow
Make the soup! Seriously, I need the soup. OK, this is starting to remind me of Seinfeld. "NO SOUP FOR YOU!" I fell better having the treats when I’m eating more fruits and veggies, plus they fill me up and are low in calories.
Weight Watchers seems to knock ya for higher fat, but I like fat, especially when it comes from raw dairy. I’m gonna focus on eating good fats and protein. We’ll see how it goes.
