Eating Out of My Comfort Zone and Testing Boundaries
Posted by January Harshe on December 3, 2007
Sunday night we got together with the extended family for a birthday. I have to say it was interesting eating somewhere other than home since I made the switch to Vegan. First of all, the only thing I could eat was noodles and sauce (which my sister was kind enough to do w/no meat). I didn’t feel deprived, but I just wanted to be home with my food!
Also, I realized that while my children can be vegan at home, when we are out I may be a little more relaxed and let them eat a vegetarian diet. No meat still, but won’t panic if they have a little bite or serving of let’s say a Coconut Cake from The Dish (a joint I love here). I might be slightly jealous, but hey, that’s OK. My family was wonderful in supporting my food choices right now and I appreciate them very much.
Now, moving on to Monday night, my sister wanted me to meet up w/her for dessert. Great. Well, I told her the dessert was all her because I’m not eating it. No problem. We get there and I order a vegetarian soup. I’m doing awesome! Then, my daughter gets a chocolate chip Heath crunch cookie. It was HUGE. Am I eating any? NO! At least that’s what I’m telling myself as I put it in my mouth and chew while thinking, "Oh, this is so good".
I was wondering after I had a few bits why I ate it. It obviously has milk, butter and eggs in it. I do not want to eat those right now, so why did I? It’s totally fine to have treats when losing weight (I did last time I had a large weight loss), but this wouldn’t have been a treat I would have picked. I’m trying to say it wasn’t a premeditated treat, but more of a heat of the moment treat. As I pondered it, I decided it was to test boundaries. I think I needed to see how I felt emotionally and physically after eating it.
Do you want to know? I did not feel good. First of all I started feeling mucousy and gross, and I wished I hadn’t eaten the dairy. I’m not against dairy and you don’t have to stop eating it to lose weight. I just personally am experimenting with not eating it right now. I like to explore with food and different ways of eating to keep things interesting on my weight loss journey’s. For me, if I were to eat dairy again, I only want it from farms I know, where the milk and cheese is raw, and when I can make butter from raw cream (this is a whole other post by the way). So, I tested that boundary and now I know I don’t want to do it again. Man, it’s like I’m a 2 year old testing my limits!
I think for now I just need to eat at home as much as possible. The food we make is so delicious and we save money! It really is better!
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